Challenges

Being a good steward is not really my strong suit. OK, it's not at all my strong suit, in fact, it's embarrassingly horrible. 

 My life is amazing and I wouldn't change it for the world. I love my jobs, family and I have amazing friends. 

I love that I can go sing karaoke with my friends and get home late with no worries of children or husband. 

It has taken me a very long time to realize that I'm blessed and God is consistently working within my life. You know when life throws challenges your way and you just don't know how you're going to pull through? Well, recently (about 6 months now) I've had these challenges which I haven't really shared with anyone because they're embarrassing. I'm not one to let embarrassment get me but in this case it prevailed. 

Without going into the "hairy details", I've been putting on a front. Then the other day it hit me. I've been living a lie. I've been living as if God has been #1 in my life. He hasn't been. He's been probably #3 or #4. Horrible, I know. 

Last weekend at Women of Faith in Des Moines I repented of this behavior. I was saddened that I would let myself be like that. 

Here I am, a wonderful woman, and I've been letting God down, blasphemous! Well, it's only been 4 days and I can totally see a difference in our relationship. It's not just that I know He's closer but it's also I'm not feeling the temptations I was feeling before. I'm not afraid to let go. I'm not afraid that if I let go I'll be alone. 

I learned this week that it is just the opposite. If I let go I'll be closer to the most important thing in my life; God! Now, who doesn't want that? 

Please pray for me and if you would like to, share how you've seen God change your life this week. May He bless you and keep you close even when you think there's no hope. I love you all!