I Have Been Slacking

 I have been slacking in a relationship. I love my husband and am committed to him. I love my family and am committed to them. I love my puppies and am committed to them. I love my savior. He died for me so that I may live. I love my God because he created this world and gave me life. But am I committed?

Today when I talked to my counselor I mentioned I do things even though I know I shouldn't. I do things I have prayed that God would remove the temptation. I hear God telling me to make a different choice, but I do it anyway. She asked me why. And my answer...because I want to. 

It feels lame in a way. But it's the truth. I want to. 

A couple of weeks ago I listened to Louie Giglio speak about heaven and it rocked me. I only listened to it once but I remember he spoke about what it will be like when we see Jesus. My synopsis is this. Think of a penpal you've had. You have been writing back and forth for decades building a relationship. Then you have an opportunity to meet that pal in person. How you greet them is based on the relationship built through letters. Do you fist bump, hand shake, hug, or run and jump throwing your arms around their neck? 

Now, imagine, your penpal is Jesus. You've been communicating with him for decades. But is he the only one sending letters or are you reciprocating? Are you building a fist bump welcome relationship or a throw your arms around his neck relationship? 

Thinking and chewing on this really affected me. What type of relationship am I working on with my God and my King? 

Am I committed?

I've been slacking. It's definitely a one way relationship between me and God. Me asking for things, Him listening. I have not been building the type of relationship that when Jesus returns I will want to run to him and throw my arms around his neck. 

This makes me realize it's no wonder that I'm not excited for Christ's return. 

Louie helped me realize the kind of relationship I want with my God and King. One that I'm so excited to see him face to face.